I'm sorry

I cannot verbalise this feeling,
of loss, of torture, of guilt, of emptiness.
There are no words, no sounds, nothing to make you understand this.
Carved, hollowed, empty, nothingness.
Where did you go?

You don't need a broken heart to know a heart can be broken.

The Rules:
1. Thank the person who nominated you.
2. Copy the award and place it on your blog.
3. Link to the person who nominated you for this award.
4. Tell 7 interesting things about yourself.
5. Nominate 7 bloggers.
6. Post links to the 7 blogs you nominate.




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Tennille - you're the reason I started actually using this blog. So thanks!
& I forfeit 'tag seven others' part.

One: I love winter. Some people say they love winter because of the fashion, because of the rain, others just say they enjoy the cold over the hot. I can't pick one reason, I just adore winter. I run hot, always have, even when it's a mild temperature I'm always complaining that it's hot. I love snuggles when it's cold, waking up to the sound of rain, lazing about the house with hot drinks & movies. It's just the best. Dreary days actually make me happy rather than sad.

Two: I hate my fingers. They're double jointed, short and bend the wrong way. I hate showng people my hands though most people don't notice what I hate about them until I point it out. When I was little I used to get upset because I used to to think that when a man proposed to me he would get grossed out by my fingers aha >.< Three: I've had my dog for sixteen years. She's a ginger Pomeranian and we got her a few weeks after I started prep, so I was only 5. She's at the vet today & we think it might be bad news but I don't want to go into it. I can barely remember my life without her, in fact I only have a few select memories that were before we had her so she's very special to me & everyone else.

Four: My heritage is Italian. My father is full Italian & moved here when he was sixteen, my mother is half Italian as her father was full. That makes me 3/4 Italian ha & the brunt of my friend's jokes as I am the token 'wog'. That being said, I hate when people refer to themselves as pasta-eatin wogs who love going to their Nonna's. It's a load of bullshit :)

Five: I finished high school in 2006. I didn't get a great enter score but it most likely had someting to do with the fact that I knew I didn't want to persue a career that cared about an enter score. Though I am happy that Mum made me finish because if I had it my way, I probably wouldn't have bothered. If I had to do it over knowing what I know now, I would try harder & actually attend school more than 3 times a week. But, that being said, I don't regret not trying harder because I'm quite happy being a Makeup artist.

Six: I'm afraid of the dark & afraid of the night. Alot of people are afraid of the dark & alot of people think it's a pile of rubbish but I promise you-I feel fearful every damn night when I turn my light off. I'm scared being the only one awake because the house makes noises. I'm afraid of things getting me in the night, the fact that you can't see in the dark & I'm convinced the world is a different place when the sun goes down. After I saw Paranormal activity (which played on every one of my fears) I lay in bed smooshed up to Terry the entire night & didn't sleep until the sun came up.

Seven: I want to start scrap booking. I have been sticking pictures out of magazines in books all my life and never new that scrapbooking was similar to this. I only just found out what it was a week or so ago when Terry & I went to Spotlight & I saw all the pretty stuff you can use for scrapbooking. I'm not sure what I thought it was but I know I thought it was more arty/drawing related which is something I cannot do to save myself.

Post 10 things which make you happy
Try and do at least one of them today


Stole this idea off Tennille. Supposedly this works on a tagged basis but with my whopping 2 followers, I don’t think I should hold my breath.


Terry - On the 21st of this month we have been together for four years. I don’t even know how that happened, but at the same time it feels like I’ve known him all my life. It’s hard to imagine my life before him and even harder to contemplate my life ever without him



Makeup - Of course. Makeup makes me happy for a few reasons now. Not only do I love doing it on myself & other people, I love the way it can transform a face & make someone feel so much better about themselves. I also love it because I loved learning about it with my girls who I miss so much-Makeup school was one of the best things I’ve ever done.



Sleep - There is nothing better than a well rested nights sleep or, even better, that long awaited Nanna nap after a long day of doing absolutely everything or absolutely nothing.



Shopping - Hands down the worst part about being unemployed or a student is the lack of money which constricts your ability to shop. I am easily addicted to shopping and going cold turkey hasn’t helped one bit. Everything from clothes and shoes to make up and skin care to home décor and books-I will buy everything and anything.



Cooking - I love cooking, especially love cooking for Terry because he’s always so amazed at the fact that I can cook & he can’t really do it that well ha ;) I love trying new recipes and learning how to make new types of food.



Kittens - words can express how much I love cats & in particular, kittens. I have wanted a kitten for so long but we can’t really take it right now-we have three dogs and a cat and another animal would just be farm overload.



Friends - I don’t see them half as much as I want lately because we’re all busy working or busy being poor. It’s also a bit hard because literally all of my close friends are in a relationship and there’s always someone who’s having a special night with their boyfriend or the thought of sitting on the couch and watching movies with their partner is more alluring than going out. However, they are my best friends for a reason and I couldn’t ask for better, more annoying friends!





Literature - I thank my Mum for always encouraging us to read as kids. She’s an avid reader herself so I suppose she wouldn’t have had it any other way. I love reading, I love starting a new book & I love re-reading an old favourite. There is no better relaxation that slipping into a book and getting lost in the pages



Music - The reason I love music is best summed up by that feeling of having a song stuck in your head all day long, then finally getting to listen to it when you get home. Bliss



Décor - I’m obsessed with home décor. Everything from trinkets to furniture to rugs to photo frames. The one thing I’m looking forward to the most when I move out finally is having a little house to myself that I can stock up with heaps of awesome stuff.

I have a job interview with Clinque on Monday.

Excited, scared, nervous, condident.